My photo, “Fervour,” that recently won a contest at Queen’s University, Kingston (see last post), is now in Brooklyn based Specter Magazine‘s 16th issue. See it here.
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“So, now you are a photographer,” said my mom, when I called her to tell her the news. As if winning a contest of some sort adds to my credibility of being a photographer.
“Yeah… I guess so.” I said with casual nonchalance.
Flashback to end Feb:
Friend: Hey, there is a photography contest at Queen’s. You should enter something.
Me: When is the deadline?
Friend: Today! I just got the email.
Me: Forward, please?
It was a Monday and I had so much lined up. There was my class at 10am. Then, a meeting with a student. And then, those books I had to hunt down at the library for a presentation I was doing on campus the following week (on Bollywood Item Girls, which is a whole other story by itself)… I wasn’t even sure if I would have the time to send anything in by their 11:59 pm deadline.
But I did. Five minutes before the clock struck 12. Me, the last-minuter. Living life on the edge.
The contest, organized by Queen’s University International Centre, was in its 5th year. Open to both undergraduate and graduate students, the demand was for “international” photos. We could submit a maximum of 2 images in 2 different categories.
A week after the submission, while I was in Edmonton for a conference, I got an email. Congratulations, it said. From 250 photo submissions, both of my photographs had made it in.
While “Fervour” won second place in the “People and Culture” category, “Together, we can” won first place in the “Critical Global Issues” one.
A bit about the photos:
Fervour (Varanasi, India):
Taken at the evening prayers on the riverbanks of Ganges in the city of Varanasi, this photo of a young priest in the midst of his daily prayers, along with many other priests, is a regular occurrence. However, it was the look of devotion on his face, even amidst the rituals, that I had to capture a photograph of that expression.
Together, we can (Kolkata, India):
While on a photowalk with a local photography club, “Kolkata Weekend Shoots,” I found myself in the largest wholesale market in Kolkata, also known as “Kolay Market”. While leaving the claustrophobic ambiance of the market, my attention was arrested by the shouts of these four men who were struggling to carry a huge load on their heads. I was both amazed and paralyzed by the sight.
The photo represents the hardships of the working class in Kolkata.
Today at their Gala exhibition/event, I got a bunch of gift certificates (read: m-o-n-e-y) and huge blown up versions of my winning photos. I have to admit it. The blown up versions have me most excited about winning this contest. If you are a student and an aspiring photographer in Canada, you know it’s goddamn expensive to blow up your photos.
So, am I a photographer?
Yeah, I guess so. (I am just doing what I do best. The duck-water thing.)
If you happen to be in Kingston, Ontario, check out the photos (along with other winning photos) at the Queen’s University International Centre on the Queen’s campus. They will be displayed (along with their descriptions) for the next two weeks.
I haven’t touched my camera since my return to Canada last April. It’s lying disused, sad, lonely. I have thought about it on several occasions. Recently, when the lake froze over in Kingston, I contemplated running out in my winter gear for some fascinating photographs. But the minus temperature outside, along with my toasty blanket, a line up of Criminal Minds on my laptop and the steaming chicken corn soup I had just made… well, they kept me at bay.
These days, when it comes to photography, I amuse myself with the photographs from my big, fat Indian holiday. They keep me warm.
I have a photograph, “Fishbowl,” in CURA. It was taken in Calcutta, India, last March. You can see it here.
It’s featured in the same issue as poet Oliver de la Paz (!)
My official artist’s statement:
Photography is not my main medium of expression. Writing is. Yet, I have found that it is photographs that express what I am unable to find words for. In photography, I try to capture the randomness in the mundane, the unexpected in the predictable, the carpe vitam in the commonplace. Some of my clicks have a voyeuristic quality, since I have found that being a single brown woman, there are certain lines one cannot cross. I trespass those lines anyway, but from a distance.
These photographs are from a series set in Varanasi, India, and were taken on the ghats (or, the riverbanks) earlier this year. They were taken in the afternoon, a time most popular for siestas in India. I have tried to capture a side of the city that is not immediately visible to touristy eyes.
I have four photographs from “Afternoons in Varanasi: A Series” in Barely South Review. Check out “Synastry” (cover), “Communion,” “Affinity” and “Rainbow” here (see pages 93, 94 and 95).
An edited version was published by Helter Skelter Magazine on 10th September 2012.
I have always wanted a tattoo. Nascent pictographs created from the controlled symbiosis of needle and ink on nothing but bare skin… yes, it has held a certain allure for me. But of course, it was off-limits. Read: strictly forbidden by my parents.
Mom: “You will get AIDS!”
Dad: “You want to be like those hippie kids?”
Me: Silent (You know the pose: Eyes down, serious face with occasional nodding. I am usually in my happy place in my head.)
But I have always wanted a tattoo. And, I usually get what I want. Eventually.
So, this was me in Bangalore in Jan. I have recently had an irreconcilable tiff with a boy I liked back then. I was also discovering new facets to my personality, being away from home for the first time. And not just away, mind you, but away in a different continent altogether.
It’s almost afternoon. I am alone in my friend’s apartment. Her friend, Swati Kejriwal, calls me up.
“Dude, it’s my day off. Let’s do something!”
“Yes, let’s. I want to get a tattoo. Can you take me to your guy?”
“Her guy” referred to her tattoo guy who she went to for the numerous tattoos she already had. I mean, if I was going to immortalize a part of my body with body ink, the least I could do was go to a place I could trust.
“Do you know what you want?”
It was a dragonfly. I liked what it signified. Maturity. Awareness. Independence. Renewal. Not to mention that Konkona Sen’s character of an aspiring writer (like me) in Wake Up Sid also had a dragonfly. Just where I wanted it.
We fix a time, she shows up in an auto, and we leave.
The parlour, Dark Arts Tattoo Studio, is a part of a comfortable little bungalow in Frazer Town.
The owner of the parlour, Pradeep Menon, is sitting in the front of the entrance, sipping beer. Swati and Pradeep greet each other like long-lost friends.
“This is my friend, Sanchari. She is the one who wants to get a tattoo,” I am introduced.
He glances at me, “What kind of tattoo?”
I hesitate, “A… a dragonfly?”
He asks one of his workers to take me inside to help me choose a design.
I am surprised to see the inside of his studio. It’s clean and brightly lit, cool with the air conditioner on. There is another woman inside, waiting to get a large tattoo on the inside of her arm. I am too nervous to ask her what she’s getting.
I choose my tattoo, and then am introduced to Anurag Pradhan, who’s to be my tattooist.
“Here, do her’s. It shouldn’t take much time,” Pradeep smiles, “it’s a puchki tattoo.”
This makes me giggle. It is indeed a tiny little thing I am getting.
So while Pradeep takes on the monster on the lady’s arm, I am ushered inside to prepare my nape.
I deliberately choose the nape. Think about it. You can hide it with a collared shirt at work, and then flaunt it in a swimming costume. Or, halter necks. Or, low-cut blouses. Or, to lovers. In moments of intimacy. Like your very own dirty secret.
The lady who helped me earlier, wipes my nape with an alcoholic solution, and then shaves the area. Then she sticks on a paper with my chosen design, pulling it off after making sure the design stays put on my skin.
“Ready?” Swati grins.
I am not, though. I am having sudden second thoughts. I remember my childhood visits to the doctor.
Doctor (holding the injection with the evil, glinting needle on it): Ready?
Me: Won’t hurt, will it?
Doctor: Not at all.
What lies! Inevitably, I screamed. Was this going to be a nostalgic reprise?
Here too, I surrender. I hand my camera to Swati and position myself as directed. Anurag is serious, his concentration elevating my nervousness quotient.
I hear the needle whirring. I wait for the pain.
There is none.
“Well?” Swati asks, as she clicks away.
“It doesn’t hurt! I mean, I kind of like it…”
In fifteen minutes, tops, I am done.
I am given instructions on how to keep my wound clean for the next two weeks, and then, after throwing away the ink used on me, the lady offers me my needle.
“Do you want your first needle?”
“First needle?” I am confused.
“Yes. Everyone keeps their first needle.”
She sounds sure of my desire to come back for yet another tattoo. I don’t contradict her, even though I know I won’t.
I accept the needle as my due.
Later, I ponder breaking the news to my parents. Eventually.
I touch my dragonfly for reassurance, tracing the wound with the tips of my fingers. The permanence comforts.
As does Swati’s mantra:
It’s the only thing you can take with you to your grave.
Photo credits: Swati Kejriwal
I am not a real photographer.
Real photographers experiment with shutter speed, aperture and other technical difficulties that include numbers– which makes my mind reel. You see, I am no good with numbers. Never was.
As blasphemous as this sounds, my DSLR is almost always on auto. Composition is my only constant.
Yet somehow, somewhere, something seems to click.
My photographs, “Prisoner” (taken at a wedding in Indore, India) and “Cock-a-Doodle-Dead” (taken at Koley Market, Kolkata, India), are in Penduline Press Literary Magazine’s WTF? issue. See them both in their complete glory here.